I was so happy to see you tonight but as soon as I saw you I felt like you didn't even want me there I felt so sad and didn't know what to do. :///

mom. pleasee. please get better.

i cant be happy anymore. please help. pleasee.

I don't like him and that you still talk to him.

ive posted five million blogs about this and you still talk to him. i fucking hate it. he is the only person i really dont want you to talk to.

i dont like how much you to talk.

one night....

please dont be afraid to call me at night. some nights i wish to be woken up by the sound of my phone. and picking up hearing your voice. even just a hi and an iloveyou. i think that would make any of my days,

cell phones....

sometimes i wish they were never invented.

365...

iloveyou.

please stop talking to him.

zzz, zzzz.......

zzzzz, zzzzz. get upset. sit up from laying down. or walk away.

take...

me away from here. i need somewhere to just be mine. away from everything.

facebook..

bugs me.

pleasee..

i dont ask for much but please dont talk to him anymore at all. please.

he/its getting to me. i dont like it.

(picturecomment)...wow. i really wish you didnt talk to him. but i know you two are friends.

some..

nights i wish to be woken up by a phone call from you. just you saying "i just wanted to hear your voice" and an "iloveyou".

put the phone away!=I

i just knew. i had that feeling.

i hope i can sleeep tonightt.

i try..

to not let it bug me but it does alittle bit.

=) =/ >=I =,(

fbmsgs=/

inbetween bark and the actually tree can be a message.

>=I...=,(

soo...

i am completely head over heals for you. i love you so much. forever and ever.....and ever.

when....

im not with you. i miss you to death. i hate saying goodbye when you or i leave. makes me sad. but like you said, at least i have you to miss. iloveyou.

lets get....

our own place right now. i want you to be able to fall asleep right in my arms everynight. or me in yours. i want to be able to see your smiling face everyday. and make each other dinner. and be abe t take nappys when ever we want. i want to grow up with you now.

byee time..

i love seeing your ittle pretty face in the window of your door or your room waving goodbye and blowing me kisses. it gives me these huge butterflies in my tummy, and i cant help to find myself saying to to myself, "shes so cute, ilovehersoomuch!"

pout! just kidding iloveyou.

im so sorry. im going to make up for it as best as i can.

soccer...

hoodie. ivebeen snuggling it just so i can pretend you are right next to me everynight.

laptop..

im going to leave my laptop on with your picture so i can pretend youre here sleeping right next to me.

napppyy.....

after lastnightt i never want to sleep alone agian. i hope our dreams come truee.

im seriously ready to cryy.

i really wished you would suprise me and show up to tuck me in.=/

youre so stupid. you dont deserve her. youre lucky she loves you so much. now stop being so dumb and show her the respect that she deserves.

thankyou.

you.

are.the.only.one. dont give up and find some faith. please.

im glad i can go downstairs to see that thhe music is left on and one sleepingg outside and one sleeping sitting down.

scum..

thats me. i am the biggest idiot on earth. even bigger then tiger woods.

but you are the only one i want and will love. i may not have proven that i want this as much as you do but i do. so bad. i have said that id prove it before. but this, this is the one. i will show you that i want it just as much. i will.

i couldnt of asked for better and yet its still not over! :D

why cant i sleep latelyy?=/

i keeep getting soo ehh "=/" lately.

ps iloveyou.

i dont like when i hear about you and the other boys in school! =,(

ehh...

=//!

i can smell you! and everytime i open my eyes to see if youre here i see the kids and cant help to smile.

ii scared..

i hope your sleeeping right noww.=,(

=,,)..

iloveyou.

im sorrry..

for making you upset these past few days. for not hanging out with you even after how much i said i missed you and stuff. just nothing is going right with this snow. i hate it, its messing up so much and making us both upset. but i do think i know why you are upset,i think its becuase i hungout with my friends instead of you. but today i couldnt.i couldnt get a car, and then you told me you were going to lindseys. then jake called me like twenty mins after you have told me that so i hungout with him and josh. i dont know. im really sorry, i hope i can makethis up to you tomorow.

i reallly cryinggg right now.

i thought of you. and i started crying=,). you care so much. iloveyousomuchh.

please no sleepover. i kinda dont mind you hanging out, but i dont like the sleepover idea=,(

ii havent...

blogged in forever. but these past two days i watched lindsey itlle puppie boootis and its was fun. we slept all day untill lindsey got home. i suprised her with a grilled cheese, i hope she liked itt and today she woke me up with a perfect little kiss. ahh i loveher. shes so perfect and makes me soo so sooo happy:D. but i hadto leave her house early becuase of snow, humph!=I anyway i just wanted to blogg!

ps. iloveyouboo.

cars card....

buffilo wing pringles, sweedish fish and ;) dicee equal the most perfect bestest valentines day ever! iloveyouboo!

boooo

think about mee. i think about youuu!=)

i wish you were heree. i miss youu. i hope i can see you soon boo.=,(

it didnt bother before. but now that think about it, it does. and im sure the closer the time comes.the worst its going to bother me. but ill live. itsnobiggie.

us. i see us forever. i cant see anything ever happen to us.

i love you.

everything..

i ever told you about growing up together and getting a house and all the fanastys we ever talked about. well theyre all truth, truth from my heart. i want them to happen more then anything in the whole wide world.i dont care if that house was a dinky apartment as long asi was waking up next to you i was would of bee more then happy. now that youre gone i want this to happen more then before, and everyday that will go by im going to want it more and more and more. you given me more strength now to prove to you that i wont hurt you ever agian. if you give me thatone last chance ill prove that all we have said can come true. and make things happen. i love you, truely really do. i can do this, i can make you a believer. give me the chance.

i hugged the two of them and said, "i dont think youre going to see your mommy agian guys"

im good at hiding my emotions around people. but as soon as i get home alone, i drain every thing thats has built up.

i still love you. and always will. i can never love anyone else, ever.

im sorry. im sorry for everything. i hope you still love me. i love you.

i doo...

i do love you. i do know you are the only girl i have intrest in. i dont care how much you dont believe me. but i know and so do the butterflies in my stomach know that you are the only girl i will ever, ever love. and are the only girl my heart is set on.

i turned..

the keyy, the car started. i told myself ill sit here and let the car warm up. really i was sitting there for a minute to see if you would come out to just give me a kiss. no kiss. i deserve it. i really deserved it. i know i lied before. im sorry. but i have been telling you the truth about everything. no lies. none. and im going to keep on telling you the truth just to keep us. i want us, i want us forever. i just hope you believe that and feel the same. old me is gone forever, he has been. but new me is now being punished for old me. and i deserve it. i cried not to make you feel bad, but becuase i know how much old me hurt you and liedd. i really do tell you the truth now with everything, i just hope you believe me. i hope you still love me, i love you. always.

i hope you still love new me. new me is here to stay. i am doing everything i can to make us last.

i hate old me to death. i was scum. old me still comes back to bite me in the ass. now im paying for how stupid i was. i hate you old me. to death.

cant sweeep. so im just thinking about youu. mwahh.

i dont feel good. i dont want to go to work. i dont want to leave my house.

i just threw up everything i ate.

pleasee feeel better boo=,(

i dont like just friend talk. not one bit. its making me so upset. i dont like it.

i cant lift my legs.

i feel numb. im scared.

please no.

for over the past month my life has not been as good as usual. you were the only person to help me through it. thank you. it means alot. i love you.

today...

i was a dick, a big dick. i dont know why i did that. its not me at all. i would of never done that in a million years but i did. i hate myself for it. whyy did i do it. i dontknow. i wish i could tell myself whyy. but i get thoughts racing threw my head and i get stupidd. i get soo scared. i just wasnt thinking eairler, i was stupid. reallly stupid to where i hurt more then just one person. i apoligize, imsorry. i am so upset for doing this, i couldnt even eat, i still cant eat. i threw up everything i tried to eat. i wasnt myself today. sorry.

i can feel myself filling up. filling up tears ready to explode. if i wasnt around my friend. everyone would be drowning in my tears.

thats wasnt me. why did i do that. i would never be dick like that to someone. i wish i had your number to apoligize to you. im sorry dude. whyyy did i do that?

whyy doo...

i let things bother me. why do i get so scared about things. i havent ate anything today and im still not hungry. i just wanttoday over.

i want...

to be perfect for youu. i feel like im not as perfect asi could be. i feeel like i cant make you as happpy as you should be, i feeel like i cant make you smile as big i as you make me smilee. but i do love you as much as you love me, if not moree.

booo...

i reallly only joke when you think im being serious. i dont think that one tiny little big at all. youre the most perfect thing to ever happen to me. i love you in every litttle aspectt. everythinggg. i dont careee how much youre look will change through the years im still going to love youu. promisee.

=/..

this past month has been terriblee. make me smilee. make the rest of my months happy. pleasee

lets.....

make it happpen boo. you be mine forever.and ii be yours.

why the fuck do people have to say such bullshit about me. i cant fucking stand it. im never leaving my house agian. lets see if more bullshit is said

why cant i have one whole day where i just smile.

i want to blogg but i dont know what to blog about. well, iloveyou. thats good enough.

im sorry i made you sit through that. i didnt think it be that bad.

come heree=/

youre a meanyhead!

=)

i want....

to go back in time and never of did that. i wish i never hurt you. im going to hate myself forever becuase of it. youre perfect. im not. im horrible. youre more then i can ever ask for. thank you. thank you for caring about me. and for loving me. i want us forever.

why did i do that. i want to take it back. its was the worst way to play possible. i took it there. i wish i didnt. i meant nothing by it at all. seriously.

for you...

In the car I just can't wait,to pick you up on our very first dateIs it cool if I hold your hand?Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?Do you like my stupid hair?Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?I'm too scared of what you thinkYou make me nervous so I really can't eatLet's go, don't wait, this night's almost overHonest, let's make this night last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverWhen you smile, I melt insideI'm not worthy for a minute of your timeI really wish it was only me and youI'm jealous of everybody in the roomPlease don't look at me with those eyesPlease don't hint that you're capable of liesI dread the thought of our very first kissA Target that I'm probably gonna missLet's go,don't wait, this night's almost overHonest, let's make this night last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverLet's go, don't wait, this night's almost overHonest, let's make, this night last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last forever!

happy....

blog for you. you mean everything to me. more then the world. youre the most cutest most adoriblest most perfect girl i have ever met. you give me that fuzzy feeling in my tummy, what they called....butterflies! and tummy smiles with the biggest grin knowing he has you. lalaaa its my favorite when you hold me and snuggle into my neck while we watch tv it makes me want to happy cry everytime. i just wish i was as perfect for you as you are for me. youre more then i ever asked for. i want to keep you forever and ever. iloveyou. alot. dinobearswear.

ii have..

a feeling. that tonights going to be a goodnight. that tonights going to be agoodnight. i have a feeling. that actually saturday night is going to be a goodnight.

madd...

i no longer am not. just aliitle bit. now im just laying in bed crying my eyes out that you wont believe me.

why..

cant you look deap down in your heart and believe me. trust me. i dinobearswear youll find out that im telling you the truth.

im..

soo furious and crying at the same time. im telling the truth and you cant trust me. and im pissed that people have to say such fucking bullshit. youll find out that im being honest.

what..

the fuck is wrong with people saying shit that is fucking true. where do they even get that fucking ideas. ihate when people have to say shit about me that is the complete opposite of what i even fucking did. and i wish you could believe me.

im

upset. i know you are too becuase you got nervous. but i promise on my life what im saying is true. i did send !tehe! i going to go now boo! iloveyou!" and for the extra two hours i rode till alittle after nine and came right home. =,,(

hookie...

it made me soo happy that you didnt crush my hope ofseeing youtoday while you stayed home from school. nothing is better then having you come pick me up and make me coffee, poptarts and ittle biscit things. even though i made then but you were in pain. i hope i made youre wittle cheek feel better. and i hope the dentist was easier to go to that i came with you. id go with you fir the rest of my life if i could. nom nom nom friendlys was yummy, it even better being able to go there with you. i cant believe i bought that drink stuff even though it made everything amazingg;). i wish i could do this stuff everyday for the rest of my life with you. promise.i really do. you make me feeel like im the only person in the world who matters.thank you for being my favorite and for being perfect. iloveyou.

last...

night i was looking at my walll thinking about you hoping that you were staring into your wall thinking about me. and for a split secondi felt likei was there with you.

=,,(..

only you can make me happy. pwease make me stop cryingg.

blaghhh....

....=/

todayy...

was fun. but i still was sad that i didnt talk to you at all today.

iii.

love sleepovers. iloveyou. period final end of storyy.

todayy

was teriible. i hated every minute of itt. besides seeing your smiling facee. you make things better. but i still dont like todayy.

boo.....

thank you for taking to work and waiting for me to take me home. it meant so much to me that you did that for me. it makes me =,,,) now how much you care about mee. i hate that i dont have a phone its the worst not being able to talk to you. well iloveyou. dont stop thinking about me. i wont. mwahhhh.

i wish we..

could live happily ever after. tummies smilee all day every day. i wantt that more then anything.

ii didnt mean it i promise. i just wanted to play with you and hold you and kiss you. i feel horrible. i wish i could fix them for you and make them like new.

=,,,,,(!

does it workk!?

dont..

make fun of us becuase were beautiful.

you you you..

i love looking at your blank face from across the room. and here and there making silly faces at each other.

please...

dont ever let me go.

thiss..

holiday week was the best i ever had. spending crhistmas and sweepover on newyears was more then i could ever ask for. i hope those days were as special to you as they were for me. i hope to spend more and more of them with you. andtoady toped if off. i got a three or four page text that made my heart stop and made me shake with butterlies. ahhhh. thank you. iloveyou.