cant sweeep. so im just thinking about youu. mwahh.

i dont feel good. i dont want to go to work. i dont want to leave my house.

i just threw up everything i ate.

pleasee feeel better boo=,(

i dont like just friend talk. not one bit. its making me so upset. i dont like it.

i cant lift my legs.

i feel numb. im scared.

please no.

for over the past month my life has not been as good as usual. you were the only person to help me through it. thank you. it means alot. i love you.

today...

i was a dick, a big dick. i dont know why i did that. its not me at all. i would of never done that in a million years but i did. i hate myself for it. whyy did i do it. i dontknow. i wish i could tell myself whyy. but i get thoughts racing threw my head and i get stupidd. i get soo scared. i just wasnt thinking eairler, i was stupid. reallly stupid to where i hurt more then just one person. i apoligize, imsorry. i am so upset for doing this, i couldnt even eat, i still cant eat. i threw up everything i tried to eat. i wasnt myself today. sorry.

i can feel myself filling up. filling up tears ready to explode. if i wasnt around my friend. everyone would be drowning in my tears.

thats wasnt me. why did i do that. i would never be dick like that to someone. i wish i had your number to apoligize to you. im sorry dude. whyyy did i do that?

whyy doo...

i let things bother me. why do i get so scared about things. i havent ate anything today and im still not hungry. i just wanttoday over.

i want...

to be perfect for youu. i feel like im not as perfect asi could be. i feeel like i cant make you as happpy as you should be, i feeel like i cant make you smile as big i as you make me smilee. but i do love you as much as you love me, if not moree.

booo...

i reallly only joke when you think im being serious. i dont think that one tiny little big at all. youre the most perfect thing to ever happen to me. i love you in every litttle aspectt. everythinggg. i dont careee how much youre look will change through the years im still going to love youu. promisee.

=/..

this past month has been terriblee. make me smilee. make the rest of my months happy. pleasee

lets.....

make it happpen boo. you be mine forever.and ii be yours.

why the fuck do people have to say such bullshit about me. i cant fucking stand it. im never leaving my house agian. lets see if more bullshit is said

why cant i have one whole day where i just smile.

i want to blogg but i dont know what to blog about. well, iloveyou. thats good enough.

im sorry i made you sit through that. i didnt think it be that bad.

come heree=/

youre a meanyhead!

=)

i want....

to go back in time and never of did that. i wish i never hurt you. im going to hate myself forever becuase of it. youre perfect. im not. im horrible. youre more then i can ever ask for. thank you. thank you for caring about me. and for loving me. i want us forever.

why did i do that. i want to take it back. its was the worst way to play possible. i took it there. i wish i didnt. i meant nothing by it at all. seriously.

for you...

In the car I just can't wait,to pick you up on our very first dateIs it cool if I hold your hand?Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?Do you like my stupid hair?Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?I'm too scared of what you thinkYou make me nervous so I really can't eatLet's go, don't wait, this night's almost overHonest, let's make this night last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverWhen you smile, I melt insideI'm not worthy for a minute of your timeI really wish it was only me and youI'm jealous of everybody in the roomPlease don't look at me with those eyesPlease don't hint that you're capable of liesI dread the thought of our very first kissA Target that I'm probably gonna missLet's go,don't wait, this night's almost overHonest, let's make this night last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverLet's go, don't wait, this night's almost overHonest, let's make, this night last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last foreverForever and ever, let's make this last forever!

happy....

blog for you. you mean everything to me. more then the world. youre the most cutest most adoriblest most perfect girl i have ever met. you give me that fuzzy feeling in my tummy, what they called....butterflies! and tummy smiles with the biggest grin knowing he has you. lalaaa its my favorite when you hold me and snuggle into my neck while we watch tv it makes me want to happy cry everytime. i just wish i was as perfect for you as you are for me. youre more then i ever asked for. i want to keep you forever and ever. iloveyou. alot. dinobearswear.

ii have..

a feeling. that tonights going to be a goodnight. that tonights going to be agoodnight. i have a feeling. that actually saturday night is going to be a goodnight.

madd...

i no longer am not. just aliitle bit. now im just laying in bed crying my eyes out that you wont believe me.

why..

cant you look deap down in your heart and believe me. trust me. i dinobearswear youll find out that im telling you the truth.

im..

soo furious and crying at the same time. im telling the truth and you cant trust me. and im pissed that people have to say such fucking bullshit. youll find out that im being honest.

what..

the fuck is wrong with people saying shit that is fucking true. where do they even get that fucking ideas. ihate when people have to say shit about me that is the complete opposite of what i even fucking did. and i wish you could believe me.

im

upset. i know you are too becuase you got nervous. but i promise on my life what im saying is true. i did send !tehe! i going to go now boo! iloveyou!" and for the extra two hours i rode till alittle after nine and came right home. =,,(

hookie...

it made me soo happy that you didnt crush my hope ofseeing youtoday while you stayed home from school. nothing is better then having you come pick me up and make me coffee, poptarts and ittle biscit things. even though i made then but you were in pain. i hope i made youre wittle cheek feel better. and i hope the dentist was easier to go to that i came with you. id go with you fir the rest of my life if i could. nom nom nom friendlys was yummy, it even better being able to go there with you. i cant believe i bought that drink stuff even though it made everything amazingg;). i wish i could do this stuff everyday for the rest of my life with you. promise.i really do. you make me feeel like im the only person in the world who matters.thank you for being my favorite and for being perfect. iloveyou.

last...

night i was looking at my walll thinking about you hoping that you were staring into your wall thinking about me. and for a split secondi felt likei was there with you.

=,,(..

only you can make me happy. pwease make me stop cryingg.

blaghhh....

....=/

todayy...

was fun. but i still was sad that i didnt talk to you at all today.

iii.

love sleepovers. iloveyou. period final end of storyy.

todayy

was teriible. i hated every minute of itt. besides seeing your smiling facee. you make things better. but i still dont like todayy.

boo.....

thank you for taking to work and waiting for me to take me home. it meant so much to me that you did that for me. it makes me =,,,) now how much you care about mee. i hate that i dont have a phone its the worst not being able to talk to you. well iloveyou. dont stop thinking about me. i wont. mwahhhh.

i wish we..

could live happily ever after. tummies smilee all day every day. i wantt that more then anything.

ii didnt mean it i promise. i just wanted to play with you and hold you and kiss you. i feel horrible. i wish i could fix them for you and make them like new.

=,,,,,(!

does it workk!?

dont..

make fun of us becuase were beautiful.

you you you..

i love looking at your blank face from across the room. and here and there making silly faces at each other.

please...

dont ever let me go.

thiss..

holiday week was the best i ever had. spending crhistmas and sweepover on newyears was more then i could ever ask for. i hope those days were as special to you as they were for me. i hope to spend more and more of them with you. andtoady toped if off. i got a three or four page text that made my heart stop and made me shake with butterlies. ahhhh. thank you. iloveyou.